Easter/ Acting Aspirations/Etc...

So, no outfit pics of Easter... yet. I have some family pictures that I will share with y'all sometime, but not today. Today, I have to write a deep, profound essay on the meaning of life for my anthropology class. It's a worldview essay... and it's due tomorrow. I probably should have started.
Through the outfit issues (the dress I wanted to wear was waaay too big from all the weight I've lost since I bought it[it was already a little loose when I bought it]. Which has an upside and a downside.), my multiple family problems, being surrounded by chocolate (and not being able to eat any of it), and having to go to separate dad/mom holidays EVERY HOLIDAY and feeling like holidays are just responsibilities and obligations, I had a rather shitty day (if you'll pardon my French). I did eat a lovely meal and the weather was nice but I just wish that for once I could get through a holiday without guilt trips from and resentment towards my father and my grandparents being judgmental and honestly rather grumpy old bastards. Sorry.

This morning has been better though. I slept in and ate quinoa (which is the staple of my diet so I hope I never get tired of it), watched multiple Logan Lerman Youtube videos because I seriously might be in love with him, made a smoothie, and pet my cats. Last night I watched Inception. Seriously crazy movie- really makes you think. What is reality? Am I dreaming right now? Does the government use this technology now? It. Just. Blew. My. Mind.
I've been thinking lately that I might like to act. I am really quite dramatic/theatrical and I just love the art behind it. I've done a few plays but they were just goofy school plays, I think I'd do better in serious plays and movies. I created a Youtube account so (if I can remember the password) I think I'm going to start making movies again. There's this one I made in like 7th grade that I should put on there. It's the best. I'm also going to take an acting class at the college, probably next spring or the fall after because I have to get my high school-required classes out of the way. Anyhoo. I guess I'm just putting off doing my homework and that won't get me a doctorate (let alone 2), so I should probably go do that now. Toodloo (how does one even spell that?)!
Love,
Belle

Easter, Spring Equinox, Resurrection!

Pagan

Christian

Secular

Rather adorable

Or whatever else you want. I am unbelievably fascinated by Christian holidays that have Pagan origins and/or aspects! Easter is completely pagan (right down to the bunnies, eggs, and even the name!), and still you get virtually every church in the nation plastering "Easter Egg Hunt!" signs around town. I think it's neat. Some other modern Christian holidays that bear striking resemblance to old Pagan ritual days include: Christmas (trees, yule logs, etc. Saturnalia "the birth of the unconquerable son" is the Roman pagan holiday), The vigil of St. Walpurga (held on the eve of May Day [Beltane; an ancient pagan fertility holiday), The Annunciation (same day that the Babylonians held a festival in honor of Cybele), St. George's Day (same day as the ancient festival of the Parilia), Feast of St. John the Baptist (very close to the day of a pagan festival of water- it included purifying followers with water [baptism?]), and- just for fun- Groundhog Day is February 2nd- the same day as Imbolc which is the Celtic Pagan festival in honor of one of their major goddesses: Brighid (Brigit, Bride; also a little known fact: the St. Brigit canonized by the Catholic church was actually the goddess Brighid [the Catholic church knew how important she was to the Celtics and knew they'd be more easily converted if they didn't have to give up one of their most important deities]). Anyway, I find this beyond interesting! Now, onto some lighter topics:) As I write I am listening to Laura Marling and eating Quinoa, shrimp:(, and mushrooms. I put a sad face by the shrimp because I feel bad about eating them. And that slim jim I had earlier. But I had Jamba juice for lunch and rice for breakfast so... not so bad! Tomorrow, I am celebrating Easter at my grandparents house with a lovely brunch. I have a pretty coral-colored dress! Then, I'm celebrating the Resurrection at my dad's with a spectacular dinner (maybe). I hope we eat ham. Even that has it's roots in the pagan Easter. I don't really want ham. I just want my dad to make it. So I can secretly laugh at his paganism. Mwahaha. I was planning on doing an Earth Day (on the same day as Good Friday. Kind of a backwards twist on things, eh?) post but instead I went to my bud's house after school and this morning we stopped by a quaint Earth Day fair downtown and hiked on Tubbs Hill. Such a beautiful day today! I can only hope tomorrow will be the same!
Love,
Belle
P.S.: check out this post on Finish Easter, it's super cute!